Poem for October

I wrote this in 2008, but it seemed fitting to post it now, in the last hour of October...

October

I can’t seem to find my morning

the sun can’t seem to find my window

outside the air is crisp like celery

and I hide from the end of daylight savings

beneath my flannel sheets.

Post season baseball

and the idea of your touch

are the only thoughts allowed to linger

before coffee

Brief October Summary

Yes…. Two whole blog posts this month! Both of them about how I don’t really have time to blog… let me re-phrase… Life happens. And with the change of season, my creative efforts have been divided elsewhere… Between that and house-sitting without internet for 3 weeks, I definitely have gotten out of the blogging rhythm… I would apologize, but overall I think spreading out the creative juices is a good thing, so I’ve been knitting, crafting, and cooking with my “free-time”. It’s fall, and these all seems like cooler weather appropriate distractions (not that writing isn’t). I’ve got a chartreuse cowl-neck scarf in the works… some felt owls, and oh so many baking adventures. (think home make mac and cheese, stews cooked in pumpkins, chowders, cookies, baked goods) I’ve also been busy with other fall adventures like trips to the pumpkin patch, and oh so much yoga! There is only a little over a month left in my certification process, which means I have 5 or so weeks to get fifty hours of yoga… motivation here I come! And then there is work… wedding season finally wrapped up (thank you Jesus) and we are now full into Harvest season… all the grapes are in, but 5 tons of olives arrived on Friday, and November is sure to be a month full of pressing, dinners, celebrations, wine tastings, and much more!  

 Pumpkin Patch!

 Arbequina Olives

 My Halloween Costume

It happens...

So I've been failing at Blogging lately...But I've come to terms with it, and am actually giving myself permission to not feel guilty. I feel like I'm juggling a lot right now, work is hectic, I'm behind in my yoga hours, I'm attempting to have a personal life, and at the end of the day there isn't enough time to be the best at my job and be the best version of myself and get everything else done in a timely fashion... and so blogging has fallen to the bottom of the list. It's not permanent, and I'm not proud of it, but such is life. You try your hardest, and start over tomorrow. I still have ideas I want to write about, I'm still passionate about things, I'm still having a love affair with poetry, and I'm still trying to find some balance. I know there are always excuses, always distractions... but sometimes life just happens and you have to go where it takes you... Especially in my work life I feel like I've taken on too many projects, and rather than doing a few of them very successfully, I'm doing all of them rather poorly... This can be applied to a lot of things outside of the work realm too. And so I'm allowing myself some time off, just until I find my footing and feel more like myself.

And I think it's working... some of the distractions are good, others not so much... but I think a little time off is just what I need emotionally to feed my creativity down the road. So I'm collecting thoughts and ideas here and there, meeting new people, knitting a few projects, and embracing the change of pace that comes with Fall.